Doing better

It's so weird - I have good days and bad days, yesterday was not that great a day but today has been much better. I've just been chillin with my two favorite people in the world and it has made all the difference. No black Friday shopping for me - we are getting what we want but there were no sales out there to match what I could find on line so yeah for the internet!! I haven't been doing much crafting stuff and I would really like to get back into that so I've decided to splurge and get what I've been wanting for awhile. :):) Maybe my body is doing a little better too with these antibiotics I've been taking. I've had no pain today either - that's a first in over a week - that makes me very happy. Here's to hoping I'm on the mend.

Been hard...

Wow, I did not think this would be so hard. I just miss my baby soooo dang much! Tomorrow I would be 20 weeks - halfway through my pregnancy. It's really hard not to think that I had such a wonderful perfect pregnancy with Alana and then to have my water break so early - I just can't make any sense of it. My brain and heart are having a really difficult time dealing with the fact that I no longer have a baby growing inside me - it just doesn't feel right. I know all the usual things - that he is up there with Heavenly Father, that we can one day be with him again (if we endure to the end of course), that I have a beautiful little girl here with me right now - and don't get me wrong I cherish all this but in those quite moments before falling asleep or when something just hits me, like a song or seeing a pregnant lady I just kinda die inside a little. Like I said - it's been hard.

Our sweet little boy...

Our sweet little boy has gone back to the care of his Father in Heaven. He was not with us very long but he definitely left a very lasting impression on our hearts. When I am ready I will post more...

I'm here...

Hi everyone - I'm here just tired. Been fighting this for over three weeks now and I'm just not really seeing the end in site - I have good days and bad days. I'm gonna go back to bed now...
(if I can get Alana down for a nap)

Oh yeah, I have an Appointment Wednesday at 1 so we'll see how that goes. May the Lord bless us with a little fluid!